Every single day I rise I have to overcome the temptation to give in to depression. All throughout the day I battle with self inflicted words wounds. Just to survive I must get my my injection of power words. Visions of suicide float through my imagination in the manner I would image “normal people” imagine lounging on the beach. I get up in the morning and begin by thanking God for all the small and large blessings he provides daily. I recite affirmations, and hear God’s word and my soul begins to revive. This is my life. I never arrive at the place where believing I can succeed comes easily. I have told myself I suck for so many years those words yearn to be forever a part of me. I am determined to prove those words liars.
Whose words are you living by? Are you living by the words spoken over you possibly by a parent, friend, a counselor or a teacher? Are you allowing someone else’s opinion become your reality? The sad truth is many times we are doing that exact thing unknowingly. There may be instances in your life where a person with influence constantly spoke words of death over you. You my ask what exactly are words of death Mr Amos? Here are a few. “You will never be.” “You’re just like your dad he was no good you’re going to be no good.” “People like us don’t do things like that.” “I knew you would.” “Are you kidding me you know you’ll never.” The list could go on and on.
One of my favorite movies of all time is the movie Rudy. It is a magnificent movie of trial and persistence based on the life of Daniel Eugene “Rudy” Ruettiger. Rudy is the ultimate story of winning against all odds. It is the all about using the power of the human spirit to overcome just about every possible obstacle. There was a turning point in Rudy’s life where he decided after a series of events that he could no longer delay his dream and lifelong passion. He saved up money from his nowhere going job and bought a bus ticket determined to leave his small town and go after his dream. Upon learning about his decision to depart his father met him at the bus station.
His father a man whose dreams and passions were squeezed out of him by family failure, familiar surroundings, and is his own shattered dreams went to “rescue” his son from what he seen as an inevitable disappointment. His father tells Rudy a story of Rudy’s grand father who like Rudy had decided to put it all on the line to chase after his dream. Rudy’s dad recounts how not only had his father ruined his life by going after his dream but he had put his whole family at risk. He says something to Rudy that’s heartbreaking though he meant well. The overall line was meant to suck the dreams out of Rudy and get him to capitulate to a life of humdrum mediocrity.
The father wanted him to conform to the safety of a meaningless job in a meaningless town. He was a scared and broken man, attempting to pass on his disappointment in an effort to chain Rudy to himself.
“Rudy you’re a Hauser. Hausers just don’t do that. We don’t do anything important.” Thank God Rudy’s resilience was too firm to be swayed by his father’s fear. Those deafening words could have caused him to to backup and relinquish his dreams to a life of “safety.” With God all things are possible!
What words have stuck with you that have caused you to freeze in time? What words reverberate through your soul creating fear or apathy? It’s of great importance that you survey those words. Unless we make a definite determination to do something entirely different from what we’ve done thus far, we will unconsciously perpetuate a defeaters attitudes. To recognize the cancer is the first step to eradicating it.
Most of us don’t know that we are perpetuating the disease of defeat in our soul surreptitiously injected by the words of others. If we don’t stop and take stock of what we’ve heard and survey their influence in our lives we will never get free. Before we know it the stage of the disease has grown into a tumor that is almost impossible to cure. Notice I said almost! All things are possible to him that believes. The battle may be steeper because you may be in your fifties or sixties or older and just now reading this book but it is not a battle that can’t be won. Recognizing the problem and the root cause is the first step to victory. I lived in this diseased state my entire life until I learned the truth. To recognize is the first step in empowerment.